Tuesday, February 28, 2012

First world risks: Public service strikes

My local built up area has had their main source of public transit go on a strike over a labor dispute back around the first of February. Like all things unionized the discussions have stalled tooth and nail at almost every point of the discussion.

This made me remember a conversation I had with a colleague of mine who holds an MS in Psychology and works for the local children's hospital. He was telling me how CEO's of companies, people who have command in the political realm, put plainly people who control the flow of money and people will if they are mentally unsuited to do work develop character traits akin to someone with psychopathy or sociopathy.

So if theoretically the head of the transit union were to fit the character profile of a psychopath or sociopath would he then be operating in the interest of the public and the transit employees? Or would he to paraphrase Alfred from Batman just want to watch the world burn? I have been warned by another colleague that a key member of the Halifax, Dartmouth and District labour council wishes to see MORE public options strike and shut down operations.

We are facing a dangerous precedent here one that could create conflict.

Think of the most important public service providers in your city and now picture all of them shutting down. People in first world cities are over refined and If the buses stop running and the garbage doesn't get picked up on time people get cranky when enough people get cranky you will eventually see an escalation of tension which if it escalates high enough would create violence. In no way am I saying this is destined to happen and there will be plenty of warning signs but the possibility is there and possibility dictates we anticipate such an event.

The first world has its own dangers. One of them is the fact that the people have become conditioned to rely on government and public works for services they need in their every day life. Roughly a third of the population of my local city rely on public transit just to function day to day.

Not every threat to our safety has the face of the stereotypical "bad guy"


Sunday, February 26, 2012

Social Engineering and how a reasonable amount of Privacy is almost non existant

Privacy is a pretty relative thing.

During my first run at college during a certification on deception and manipulation I was told to gather information on a fellow classmate. Many others asked questions and damn near interviewed their mark quite obviously. I spoke to my mark for maybe 20 seconds on the way to the coffee shop that was next door, After school I went home opened up her Facebook account and built a 3 page file on my mark and presented it the next day.

It was a little easier for me since we were already friends on Facebook however even if we hadn't been I think I still could have produced  a good two pages just off of internet searching.

What I had practiced is known in the InfoSec (Information Security) field as Social Engineering.

"Social Engineering - The management of human beings in accordance with their place and function in society. This definition was created in 1899."

The definition still holds true. You are ‘managing’ people according to their function.  You’re getting them to do things that they probably shouldn’t, gathering information on them, conning them, using scare tactics, tricky wording, making them think they’re helping you or themselves or that your just a good friend.

This used to call for a team of trained ex spooks but today all you need is a name, (or even part of a name) an internet connection and some time to kill.

Today we live in a world where in order to do "normal and modern" things ....like communicate (or self-publish a tactical blog) we voluntarily sacrifice a moderate level of privacy. And while we like to think that this is in our hands it really isn't. The decision to give it away or keep it is ours but once we give it away it's no longer in our control.

The use of any electronic communication device is routed through large corporations with government regulation. At any given time hundreds of people on a daily basis have access to anything about you minus your inner most thoughts. (unless you are a blogger of course)

There is ZERO privacy in the Internet. Those crazy kids at the NSA/CIA/FBI/RCMP/CSIS not to mention millions of corporate entities with all their gadgets and gizmos work around the clock on constant watch word surveillance, and if you were motivated to dig moderately hard enough you can find out a lot about a person right down to the color of their skivvies.

Every-time we open a new profile on a social networking site, post off our cell phone, use twitter etc we voluntarily give away our privacy. This makes it difficult if you ever are targeted by someone to argue that your privacy was invaded when they can show what two hours of internet search engines alone produced. Not to mention any surveillance done or trash rooted through (by the way start burning paper documents and maybe try recycling more.)

Trash rooting is yet another form of Social Engineering.  Be careful of what you throw out.  Shred anything that has your name, address, any information on you whatsoever.  then burn it Anything that is in a trash can (unless posted otherwise) is garbage and is available freely for anyone to take.  If you have a trash can outside, bring it in to the garage, but DON’T leave it outside.  Once you put your trash down on the curb, it’s more or less fair game.

Dumpsters at corporations are usually not guarded or usually don’t have signs stating that they are private property, if they don’t, they’re also fair game and anything taken from them is taken legally.  This is how police get a lot of information without a warrant. This is also a way for police to get probable cause to get a warrant.  This is also a way police can get DNA from someone, if they spit gum into a trash can, throw out a coffee or soda can or cup, that can lead to fingerprints, DNA samples, the works.

Ask yourself this. I shared in rapid fire fashion before the whole class complete and perhaps mildly embarrassing details about my mark down to the bar she frequented on weekends. Was her privacy invaded?

No not technically the info was just sitting there for the whole world to see if they knew where to look.The more we attention-whore ourselves out the less we can lay claim to our rights of privacy.

 Key factors to keep in mind.

People want to help, people don’t want to get in trouble, people want to think other people have good intentions and finally people are stupid.

That is the core of social engineering.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

What is a greyman? - Mindset

This is going to be the start of a series on what a Greyman is. Starting with mindset, then moving on to tactics, skills, and gear. Our blog here bears the name "Greyman Doctrine" for two separate unrelated reasons the first is that when I was in middle school I wore a grey hoodie all the time as my daily outerwear and a kid in my class found it funny that I always had a grey hoodie on and so I was given the title "Greyman" It stuck through high school.

Second is a nickname from the cold war era. The term “Greyman” originated as a slang term for people who worked in espionage and intelligence, during the latter part of the cold war era. These days Greyman is usually applied to someone who works in the intelligence, law enforcement or security industries who wishes to blend in to the everyday environment.

People in certain industries can spot other people in that line of work because of how they look and how they act (puffing up their chest and bragging etc) How can you spot a firefighter? You don't have to spot him he will tell you and everyone in ear shot how he is a firefighter!

Now for firefighters that is not that big of a deal but the same type of attitude is carried by security professionals working in high risk areas. Ask any security professional who has moved through Dubai on the way to work a detail in Iraq or Afghanistan in the last decade and they will share a funny story of a dude standing around the airport dressed like this.
  Now photography vests and khaki cargo pants are all well and good however by wearing that stuff outside of your deployment area you might as well hold up a neon sign that reads "Hey there my Nubian brethren I carry a gun and shoot jihadists for a living you should kidnap me!"

If you wear that stuff here in the first world outside of a training course you look like a fucking geek and broadcast to those who know the signs that you are some sort of hard charging pipe hitter.

Tactical styled gear in a non deployment setting is a giant target indicator. This is a quote from an article written by a security contractor named Luke while traveling through Dubai Airport

"The last time I flew out, I watched in horror as a guy walked down the concourse to get on the airplane.  He had his 511 pants on, his 511 shirt, his company hat and a tan Blackhawk bag that had his nametag nicely stitched on it. I asked him if he knew he stuck out like a sore thumb and he said 
yeah, but “so what?”."

Do not be that person. Have the mindset of someone who doesn't want to be seen or remembered. I'm not saying being paranoid just realize the Mumbai attack specifically targeted westerners. This principle does not just apply to military and security professionals they were just a good example to use. Be grey in everything you do.


Friday, February 24, 2012

Fight philosophy - The lack of hyper intense H2H options

Some people say you are either born a fighter or not. I believe there is some truth in that, just like people who are naturals at playing golf or mathematics or people born with artistic talent, some people are just born with that “angry blood”. Others are a product of their environment, that quintessential "bad neighborhood" that everyone always tells you too avoid. Those people who either by birth or upbringing have zero fear in their eyes before a throw down due to the large amount of fights they have been in.

At the same time I have seen guys go into the military as lightweights and come out as hard charging warriors so that is a good example that a combination of the right training, some hard work that puts a little callus on your hands and a few years in the right environment can transform even the most mundane individual into a pretty fearless individual.

I myself come more from the “product of my environment” category than the born angry category. I was a skinny socially awkward nerd who had very little confidence talking to someone much less fighting them. I had my fair share of ass kicking's, did a little bit of time in the emergency field and then when it came time to find a job I decided I wanted to work with the law but I was too stupid to go to law school so I decided to train to become a correctional officer.

At that point I knew I had to make a change if I would survive in such a business. I had willingly decided to enter an environment where I knew I would have to fight someone and so I decided that before I had the cell block doors lock behind me for the first time I wanted to get some genuine truly intense combative training I'm talking the type of training where you go home limping and you can’t remember what day it is.

I had that very type of training 3 times a week for almost 5 months.

Unfortunately due to the liability issues and the fact that MOST (not all) martial arts schools are built around getting you “up to the next level” [Read that as paying for more classes] – finding intense H2H training can be difficult.

 Kelly McCann addressed this issue in one of his books. He suggested creating a small group that was willing to train hard enough, frequently enough and pummel some learning into each other. No club, no insurance, no Kata, just a garage, backyard or any other private area and a bunch of motivated fighters.

Research the schools in your area or do some networking and build a crew to fight with on your own. Get out there and break through your comfort zone. Hit that point where you walk home limping and cannot remember what day it is.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Time out: Smell the roses

Dear beloved internet audience. Being a security and conflict conscious program the Greyman Doctrine has a habit of frequently covering many dark and unfortunate events that occur around the world.

Many people who are either in this particular field or follow its activities have a habit of either burning out or developing compassion fatigue from being exposed to such unfortunate events on a regular basis. We at the Greyman Doctrine wish to encourage you to be aware of these dangers and risks around the world but without developing a sense of paranoia or acquiring any form of emotional pollution into your personal life.

Many times the news can be a depressing thing to read as we focus so regularly on the negative and the corrupt in the world. I implore you to take a look at the positive just as much as the negative. Look around your community at the hard working volunteers who provide programs that without their service would not exist, think of the good genuine hard working people around you. think of your loved ones.

I am personally a man of faith and though I would never force my beliefs on another if you yourself are also someone of faith then I hope God will enrich and bless both you and your family. The times are hard and they will probably get harder still. It is my belief that for every act of evil on this earth there is an act of good that follows it. Its just sometimes a little harder to notice.

So despite all the depressing news coming your way take some time out of your day to smell the roses, tell that lucky girl or boy in your life how much you love them and how happy you are that they are in your life, go buy a coffee for a stranger, tell your mom and dad how important they are to you.

As Bobby Mcferrin once said "Dont worry, Be happy"


Analysis: Bombing and heavy fighting in Shia populated areas of Baghdad 2/23/2012

Initial analysis indicates this to be a cultural attack with hostilities targeting Shia populated areas both in and outside of Baghdad.

Confirmed numbers are as follows:
  • nine civilians dead after two bomb blasts in Karrada district
  • two civilians dead after bombing in Baquba, north east of Baghdad
  • six civilians dead after a car bomb in Shia-dominated Kadhimiya, north of Baghdad
  • six killed by gunmen at a police checkpoint in the Sarafiya district of the capital
  • two dead and five injured in an explosion in the western al-Mansour district
  • two killed and ten injured in two explosions in Dorat Abo Sheer, southern Baghdad
  • two killed and nine wounded in an attack by gunmen using weapons with silencers, targeting a police patrol in Saidiya, southern Baghdad
  • seven injured, most of them policemen, in a blast in al-Madaen, south of Baghdad
  • five civilians injured in a bomb explosion in Taji, north of Baghdad
  • eighteen killed at the Iraqi national police academy  
  • eight civilians killed and fifty six injured in Salaheddin
  • seven civilians and 3 police officers killed by an explosive device in al Nil, north of Hilla  
  • one civilian child killed and 85 wounded by vehicle based explosive device in al Mussayeb
Total at present: 66 dead with 177 wounded

Kinetic action has also been detected in Mosul, Kirkuk and the province of Salahuddin though at present casualties have not been leaked to public source. Immediately after the withdraw of American forces the Iraqi government has released an arrest indictment accusing Vice President Tariq al-Hashemi of financing death squads and having some role in the string of violence that has hit Iraq since the withdraw of American Forces.

Mr Hashemi at present denies all charges, and is currently in Iraqi Kurdistan, under the protection of the regional government. He is the most senior Sunni politician in the Iraqi government at present.

If this is an attempt at cultural genocide roughly 60% of the Iraqi population are in danger. At present there is no clear indication as to how Iraqi Security Forces are planning to handle protecting such a large part of the countries population other then the issuing of an arrest warrant on the Vice President.

Detailed Analysis to follow.


Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Kenpo for war Tai chi for peace

Much like the Yin and Yang of Chinese philosophy Kenpo Karate and Tai Chi Chuan are two polar opposites they move in opposition  of each other while also building a harmony. Tai Chi movements are soft, smooth, slow like a flowing stream while Kenpo relies on lightening fast, hard explosive strikes, punches and kicks carrying with it the fury of a tsunami. These two martial arts styles are so different that no Tai Chi posture as practiced in that slow, smooth roll of the form can be applied to Kenpo; and like wise no Kenpo technique with its rough aggression can connect with Tai Chi.

Yet the Kenpo practitioner who practices Tai Chi can greatly benefit from it and vise versa for the Tai Chi practitioner.

Kenpo is of course a combative, but Kenpo training also develops your self confidence, coordination, stamina, and awareness. Kenpo is put plainly for war.

Tai Chi on the other hand is designed as an exercise for personal health and developing energy, endurance, inner strength, physical coordination, hand/eye coordination, balance and flexability, as well as exercising memory, improving the immune system, reducing stress, and teaches harmony, relaxation, clamness, and when done in groups, community. Tai Chi is, therefore, for peace.

The Yinyang is symbol in which its opposites are equal. One side is not larger then the other, one side cannot outweigh the other. Perfect balance and harmony must be maintained.


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Meditations on conflict - Appreciate the rule of law and security of western society

Editors Note: The following is an article I wrote as a guest writer for the Barrie ON based blog www.civiliansheepdog.com back in March of 2011 shortly after the disaster the struck Japan. It has gone through a mild revision for posting to my home blog.


G'day folks.

I dont have a huge amount to say today but I just want you to think about something briefly. Regardless of whatever crime statistics or talk about bad neighbourhoods or dangerous neighbourhoods in your area right now by being a part of the first world by being a part of this country means that we live in one of the safer places on earth. I can walk down my street at night (most nights at least) without any fear of being harmed I can go to sleep knowing that chances are good I will wake up the next morning. Cherish every moment of this comfort my friends.

That safety can be taken away from us in an instant. Our opposition the threats for which we train for is not just the people we may one day have to fight off or the animal that could be the answer between starvation and survival. I believe and I dont think anyone can disagree with me that one of the biggest dangers that merits respect from us is mother nature this has been proven many times and our generation has seen it first hand in Haiti and most recently on the island of Japan.

Alongside these horrible disasters which have torn through Japan, Chile and Haiti there are millions of people around the world who do not live with the same comforts we enjoy every day. These people live all across the world and on occasion right here on our own soil.

At this very moment to be brief we have civil unrest in Libya and Egypt and we have almost endless political crisis and military conflict in Afghanistan and Iraq, crime and terrorism off the coast of africa and on occasion threats that strike right here in our own backyard. (crime and domestic terrorism)

Alongside all of these horrible events that we watch on CNN and CBC every night we have people in this very country right now. A country by most other standards of living should be considered impossible to starve in we have people who right now cannot afford both power and food. we have people who cannot afford medicine which they must pay out of pocket because it is not considered vital for maintaining "qualit life". The sheepdog mindset in my opinion has evolved from a brief little quote taken from a psychology professor and has created its own belief system and society.

Something that is in between a peasent and a warrior. Someone who stands ready to keep the wolves of everyday life at bay be they natural or man made, someone who is comfortable risking their neck to protect someone else not out of blood relation or for queen and country but simply because it is the right thing to do.

In closing I ask you please join Civiliansheepdog.com in sending out some prayers for the people of Japan who right now are not in the best of places and If you can afford to do so then please considering donating to the relief effort you can do so via the Canadian Red Cross, UNICEF Canada and World Vision Canada as well as through most mobile service providers.

And I just want to leave you with a challenge. please think about how you can make an impact in your community. no matter how small an impact you make somebody will appreciate it.

Be ready and stay safe

Lesson time: The Conflict Curve

Editors Note: The following is an article I wrote as a guest writer for the Barrie ON based blog www.civiliansheepdog.com back in February of 2011 It has gone through a mild revision for posting to my home blog.

Today we are going to talk about the conflict curve. This is a scale that was developed by Michael Lund in his book Preventing Violent Conflicts. this is a graph used to illustrate how conflict can be both violent and non-violent, and how the use of force in violent conflict tends to rise and fall over time. The curve also helps organize terms and concepts used by conflict management professionals, showing how a conflict's different phases relate to one another and to various kinds of third-party intervention.

The course of disputes that become violent conflicts is traced in relation to two dimensions: the intensity of conflict (the vertical axis) and the duration of conflict (the horizontal axis)." The line that forms an arc from left to right across the diagram portrays the course of a conflict as it rises and falls in intensity over time. Its smoothly curving bell shape is oversimplified to characterize an 'ideal type' life history. As suggested by the arrows that deviate from the line, the course of actual conflicts can exhibit many different long and short life-history trajectories, thresholds, reversals, and durations. Even conflicts that have been resolved can re-escalate quickly. Nevertheless, the model has value in allowing us to make certain useful distinctions among the conflict management interventions that relate to different levels of intensity.

The column on the left describes relations between parties to the dispute and is divided into various phases of peace or conflict, Durable Peace, Stable Peace, Unstable Peace, Crisis, and War—with lower intensity phases characterized by what Lund calls interactive, mutually accommodative behavior, such as debates and negotiations and higher intensity phases characterized by unilateral, coercive behavior, such as ultimatums, sanctions and physical force. The best way to understand the model is to take a close look at each of these phases.

Durable Peace involves a high level of reciprocity and cooperation, and the virtual absence of self-defense measures among parties, although it may include their military alliance against a common threat. A ‘positive peace’ prevails based on shared values, goals, and institutions (e.g. democratic political systems and rule of law), economic interdependence, and a sense of international community.
Even in a state of durable peace, disagreements will arise on any number of issues, but these disputes will be resolved through Peacetime Diplomacy or Politics, whose objectives include maintaining and strengthening stable relations and institutions.

Stable Peace is a relationship of wary communication and limited cooperation (e.g. trade) within an overall context of basic order or national stability. Value or goal differences exist and no military cooperation is established, but disputes are generally worked out in nonviolent, more or less predictable ways. The prospect for war is low. As in durable peace, the mechanism for resolving disputes is still termed Peacetime Diplomacy or Politics.
If disputes remain unresolved and tensions continue to rise, the conflict may over time enter a phase known as Unstable Peace. This is a situation in which tension and suspicion among parties run high, but violence is either absent or only sporadic. A ‘negative peace’ prevails because although armed force is not deployed [or employed], the parties perceive one another as enemies and maintain deterrent military capabilities... A balance of power may discourage aggression, but crisis and war are still possible.

if preventive diplomacy and crisis prevention are not successful, tensions may continue to rise. Through various types of confrontation, relations may reach the phase of Crisis. Crisis is tense confrontation between armed forces that are mobilized and ready to fight and may be engaged in threats and occasional low-level skirmishes but have not exerted any significant amount of force. The probability of the outbreak of war is high.
Initiatives taken to diffuse tension during a period of crisis are termed Crisis Diplomacy and Crisis Management, whose objectives include containing crises and stopping violent or coercive behavior.
If efforts at crisis diplomacy are not successful, there may be an outbreak of violence, and the conflict may enter the phase of War. War is defined by the USIP as sustained fighting between organized forces. It may vary from low-intensity but continuing conflict or civil anarchy…to all-out ‘hot’ war. Once significant use of violence or armed force occurs, conflicts are very susceptible to entering a spiral of escalating violence. Each side feels increasingly justified to use violence because the other side is. So the threshold to armed conflict or war is especially important.

Efforts by outside parties at ending hostilities are known as Peacemaking or Conflict Management. If an agreement to end hostilities has been reached, such outside parties might then engage in Peace Enforcement or Conflict Mitigation.

Now if efforts at peacemaking and peace enforcement are successful, the fighting will subside. There may be a cease-fire such as the 38th parallel between north and south korea which may help reduce tensions and move the relationship from a state of war back simply to a state of crisis. At this point, efforts to keep the conflict from re-escalating are typically called Peacekeeping and Conflict Termination.

As the result of a settlement, the parties may begin the difficult processes of Conflict Resolution and Post-Conflict Peace Building. Through such efforts, tensions can be reduced to a point where the relationship can be described as a stable peace or even a durable peace.

This is just a quick introduction to conflict analysis For more information I highly reccomend looking into the USIP's online website for more information about the subject.


Cheers folks

Practical Skills - The Preparedness Portfolio

Editors Note: The following is an article I wrote as a guest writer for the Barrie ON based blog www.civiliansheepdog.com back in February of 2011 It has gone through a mild revision for posting to my home blog.

Today we are going to talk about building a preparedness portfolio. This is one of the first steps that I personally feel you should do before buying any fancy knives or emergency tools. Basically this is a document that covers not only your plans for emergencies and disaster preparedness but also personal records, financial data, insurance information and medical information.

A lot of people like to prepare for the end of the world and zombies and all that cool stuff but not enough people prepare for the hospital trip that they might have to take next Tuesday. This document is intended to cover any and all aspects of emergency preparation.

Step 1: Build a survival portfolio.

As everyone knows knowledge is power so as such it makes sense to have a plan for everything. Becoming “prepared” isn’t something you can really do in a weekend with a few YouTube videos and a trip to Costco it is a complete change of your entire lifestyle that will occur over many years. The first thing I feel you should do before spending any real money is simply get a binder and some paper and write down your plans, where do you live? Whats the terrain like? Where do you want to go?, what do you want to do?, develop specific plans for specific disasters, write down any information you feel you may need such as your contact information, family contacts, friends, phone numbers and addresses for any local agencies, hospitals, emergency centres, poison control centres etc If you have a family member with a life threatening condition such as diabetes write down all specific details about this individual, medications, allergies etc so you can provide accurate rapid information to paramedics/medical responders, have any insurance details handy that you can give to your insurance agency in the event of a fire or some other disaster.

Keep a detailed record of the contents of your evacuation kits and first aid kits. Also write down a purchase list of all of the things you need to buy for each specific kit, If some supplies have an expiry date write it down and check the list regularly so you know when to replace things. Write down the serial numbers of any equipment and keep a record of it if only for insurance purposes. This exercise is not only good for personal preparation and insurance purposes but its also a good way to instill some discipline and consistency into your daily routine.

Keep records of all of your information in this binder even copies of things like birth certificates, marriage license, any contracts you sign, any documents with your name on it. It not a cool sort of preparedness that can make you look like a ninja on YouTube and if zombies are tearing down your front door then sure its not going to do much of anything but this binder might save your neck one day even if its just with an insurance agency.

Now as this binder is going to contain a lot of personal information related to banking, health, and supplies plus other vital pieces of information maintaining a solid state of security is of the utmost importance. I keep mine in a locked case. You might want to consider the same. Sentry brand fireproof boxes are only a couple bucks at walmart they aren’t the most secure thing on earth but its better then just sticking it on the bookshelf.

While taking some sort of high speed zombie slaying course is all well and good you need to build plans for all levels of disaster this doesn’t just include earthquakes and riots it includes deaths in the family, divorces, job loss, identity theft, car accidents etc. Basically anything that can go wrong in your life make a note of it in the portfolio and then build a plan for it.

This is a very simple exercise that only calls for a few bucks at Staples and little bit of your time.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Meditations on violence - Take your ego out of the equation

 Violence is a mental exercise. Be it an fight between two people or a major combat operation, gun, knife or empty hand It makes very little difference as at the core of all conflict is the mind. The response begins in your head and from there must flow into your hands and your feet. This response is strongly aided by micromanagement or rather the ability to respond in an immediate fashion to a presented stimulus because you have been conditioned to do so.

But to properly condition yourself is too step outside of ones comfort zone and be willing to face a high level of violence and aggression very frequently in a controlled environment. This is where most people who live a martial life be it by profession or hobby fall short.

Far too many practitioners of warrior skills stick to what they are most comfortable doing in order to maintain a positive self image. As a karate practitioner I had always stuck to stand up striking based fighting of all flavors and paid less attention to grappling and ground fighting as that is what I was not comfortable doing, It took me a long time to realize that I had allowed my own personal self image to take a priority over my combative ability.

Lying crumpled up on the dojo floor or failing a training mission is a confidence killer without a doubt and without a high level of confidence many people will not train. The problem in that way of thinking though is that by training to a lower level then what the fight will be you are being counter productive.

 As instructors you need to trigger that reaction of fight flight or freeze within your students. You have to make them hit that breaking point and then teach them to move through it. As students we have to relish hitting our failure point we have to take pride in every time we get knocked down, we have to treat every fight as a learning experience.

The question you have to ask yourself is to what extent are you willing and capable of saving your own or someone else's life? And are you going to let your sense of pride get in the way of that?